All consuming fire of Love,
come burn away what hinders Love
Til I am only Your's.
I wanna stay close to the fire in your eyes,
to the burnings of Your heart,
...I don't wanna grow cold.
come burn away what hinders Love
Til I am only Your's.
I wanna stay close to the fire in your eyes,
to the burnings of Your heart,
...I don't wanna grow cold.
- Stay Close by Cory Asbury
I am so weak, ugly, incapable, unworthy, selfish, frail, ineloquent, and incredibly flawed.
I'm sure everyone has felt this mix of emotions. Oh, how I know it too well. Lately I've felt this and it tore me apart to tears. I shared this briefly to a friend of mine, and the selfish part of me was expecting that she was going to comfort me and speak sweet words into me.. I was wanting her to tell me, "No, not at all, you're an awesome woman of God." But no! haha!! She didn't. And it's exactly what I heard the LORD telling me after I confronted Him with it. Oh how He humbles me again and again!! In light of who He is, I'm seeing that it is true. I am weak. And when I look on towards other people and I see the strength of the LORD displayed in them, I need to remember that what they have is what I also have, and it's nothing. We have nothing, nothing to offer Him, but ourselves, if that. [thanks Melisss]
My heart has just been to pursue the LORD. To be consumed by His zeal and love. There's something about being consumed. It's wholehearted and it prompts us to respond not soley in 'the moment' but in the long haul. I want that. I want to be so spent on Him and as misty edwards says, I want to "place [my] heart in front of the flame, that [my] heart would melt." And I'm discovering more and more what that means. What it means to place our hearts in front of the fire. It hurts and it takes a true dying to ourselves... Honestly, I must say, there must be more than this. I have prayed this time and time again and though part of me feels like I need to feel convicted as I say that because, isn't he suppoes to satisfy? Does He not make me whole? Yes, and again I say, Yes, He does!! Psalm 145: 16, "You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing." The Beattiudes mention "Blessed is he who hungers and thirsts for righteousness for they shall be filled." The LORD opens His hand to fill us and satisfy us but my heart asks, "Have we hungered? Have we thirsted??" Make us that LORD! By Your grace and mercy, would You fill us? =)
My prayer lately has been that God would make me like flint, that I'd set my face towards Him and bear the fire. Make me lovesick for You. That You would seriously burn away all the things in me that is not of You, make me pure in heart, for I want to see Your face [Matthew 5:8]. In Your most beautiful Name. =}
I'm sure everyone has felt this mix of emotions. Oh, how I know it too well. Lately I've felt this and it tore me apart to tears. I shared this briefly to a friend of mine, and the selfish part of me was expecting that she was going to comfort me and speak sweet words into me.. I was wanting her to tell me, "No, not at all, you're an awesome woman of God." But no! haha!! She didn't. And it's exactly what I heard the LORD telling me after I confronted Him with it. Oh how He humbles me again and again!! In light of who He is, I'm seeing that it is true. I am weak. And when I look on towards other people and I see the strength of the LORD displayed in them, I need to remember that what they have is what I also have, and it's nothing. We have nothing, nothing to offer Him, but ourselves, if that. [thanks Melisss]
My heart has just been to pursue the LORD. To be consumed by His zeal and love. There's something about being consumed. It's wholehearted and it prompts us to respond not soley in 'the moment' but in the long haul. I want that. I want to be so spent on Him and as misty edwards says, I want to "place [my] heart in front of the flame, that [my] heart would melt." And I'm discovering more and more what that means. What it means to place our hearts in front of the fire. It hurts and it takes a true dying to ourselves... Honestly, I must say, there must be more than this. I have prayed this time and time again and though part of me feels like I need to feel convicted as I say that because, isn't he suppoes to satisfy? Does He not make me whole? Yes, and again I say, Yes, He does!! Psalm 145: 16, "You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing." The Beattiudes mention "Blessed is he who hungers and thirsts for righteousness for they shall be filled." The LORD opens His hand to fill us and satisfy us but my heart asks, "Have we hungered? Have we thirsted??" Make us that LORD! By Your grace and mercy, would You fill us? =)
My prayer lately has been that God would make me like flint, that I'd set my face towards Him and bear the fire. Make me lovesick for You. That You would seriously burn away all the things in me that is not of You, make me pure in heart, for I want to see Your face [Matthew 5:8]. In Your most beautiful Name. =}
I think it's funny that you were expecting me to say certain things and I had no clue. I like to give you the tough love. Just kidding. I love that I can be honest with you though :]
ReplyDeleteAnd I love that you can be honest with me.
Good verses. Love God's word. Excited for this semester. It's still only begun. I love you.
I think there was more I wanted to say but I'm so distracted right now by some person in the library with this blue plaid jacket and some big bright pink glittens. I guess I'll just talk to you later. Peace.
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Man, Michelle, I love how honest you are in this blog. I love that you always tell me how real I am and you are just the same, it's amazing :) :) :) :) :) :)
ReplyDeleteI completely agree with how we need to give God are everything and I feel the same way, right now I just want to persue God with everything but it feels like Worldly matters still get in the way. Is it the enemy? I don't know. I'm pretty sure this makes no sense but in my head it does.
I love the verses and songs that you have chosen to go along with this entry.
I love Misty Edwards too, she just finds the right words to say and go along with what I want to say to the Lord. I really want to set him as a seal on my heart so He can have all of me.
And I agree with Melissa, someone in a blue paid jacket is quite distracting hahaha
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